Thursday, May 31, 2012
A gentle voice behind her caused her to jump up. "You don't know. Alone, all you can do is guess. Each door leads to a possible future. Whether it is your next destination on the eternal plan, you cannot know without help."
Carla was positive she hadn't spoken aloud, but she turned towards the voice and asked, "What is this help?" She raised her hand to shield her eyes from the shining light and called out, "I can't see you. How do I know you're there?"
"You have other senses than sight, have you not? Senses that course through your entire being beyond the simple external five. What do these senses tell you?"
Carla closed her eyes for a moment, trying to discern the deeper trust in her faith of the divine. "That You exist. That You are here with me even though I cannot see Your face. And that You are the answer to all of my troubles. Please. Tell me what to do."
She felt rather than saw His smile as He said, "Carla, my child, it is simple. Follow Me. That is what you must do."
Her heart sank as she complained, "But what should I do specifically? Which of these doors opens onto the next step for my path? How do I decide?"
"Talk it out for Me, and you will realize the answer you have always had within your soul."
"But it would be so much easier if You would just tell me."
"Since when has My way been about the easy way out?" He admonished her.
Carla bowed her head in submission. She rubbed her temples and began to work it out. "I suppose the first step is discernment of your vocation. Check. Mine's marriage and motherhood. But I can't just jump through the Family door. I haven't even got the meager beginnings of my own as of yet."
"Correct so far. This room, then, is the 'waiting' room. It is where you discover what your purpose on life is between childhood and fulfilling your vocation."
"How long am I stuck in this interim?" He did not answer. "I suppose that's for You to know and me to find out." Again she felt His smile and groaned inwardly. I always knew He had a strange sense of humor. But she stopped because she remembered how He could read her thoughts. "Ok. So I have to decide, or rather discover, what my interim singlehood is for." Carla sat back down and tucked her knees under her chin. The door choices swirled before her closed eyes as she tried to figure out the correct decision. "I don't know!" she finally cried out. "At least, I can't know without Your help. Please help me!" Her prayer for guidance did not go unanswered.
"All you need do is trust My path and stay alert for the signs which I will send. They will guide you through the days ahead."
"But how will I know what these signs are?" Carla asked, but she received no answer. Trial and error, I suppose. Mixed with a bit of prayer and a large helping of faith. The next time she opened her eyes, Carla was in her bed once more. A car horn blew outside as birds heralded the new day. As she prepared for work, her dream played over in her mind. "Fine," she whispered. "I'll try to watch." As she ran out the door, Carla had no idea how much faith in God's plan could change her life.